04-17-2017, 01:38 PM
I've been screwing myself over for the past few weeks concerning school work. All I can describe it as is distractions galore.
Funny thing is, there seems to be the vicious cycle I go through every year concerning any "new" thing I start doing. First half of this semester (or maybe more like 2/3s) I was on top of EVERYTHING. Now the second stage of my final project is late and I'm still working on it (though my professor is fairly lax with due dates). I know it's all my fault, and I get caught in a mental infinite loop and my brain refuses to work no matter how hard I make effort to fix the problem. I just stare at my screen feeling bad for myself.
And if you guys wanna hear my 2 cents on what you've posted here:
@Jade The second you get a chance to get out of the house and STAY out, take it. It's what my mom did. I use to call my grandmother on her side "Granny Barb", now I'll refer to her as "Granny Bitch" in front of my mother and she sometimes even encourages it. I haven't seen GB in likely a decade too, ever since my mom got her shit together(well, she always had, but she finally decided to drop a lot of toxicity in her life). And when you get out, force them out of your life. Don't engage them at all. Just ditch them. Again, what my mom did. I know family is important, but real family goes beyond simple blood relation.
@Dell Much of the same thing I said to Jade, but to expand on that (and this goes for Jade's situation as well). If he never gets physical, then words are only words. I know it sounds stupid but standing up to him is the best thing you can do. Either telling him to fuck off or just ignoring him, it also seems like your mom is on your side. If he gets physical, then he's lost. You can get the police involved. It's the tougher option but I feel it's the right one. I was really, REALLY young when my mom finally got my biological father out of my life. I never loved him, and I always remember being scared of going over to his house for the weekend. He never got physical with my two younger brothers, but he did with me sometimes. Obviously I couldn't fight back back then, but I'm sure you can, and even if it's not that much it's something.
@Vision I'm not a teacher, so I can't say much, but my mom is and something I admire about her is she has dealt with the most difficult SPED students you get and consistently came home with bruises from students getting violent with her. Yet she never once considered just giving up on them. Though, she did eventually get a new job at an elementary school, while she was in SPED she always put her best foot forward when it came to dealing with difficult kids. I know she wanted to strangle them at times, but she understood that there were just kids and mentally challenged ones at that. If you can't simply move back to your home country and get a different teaching job, all I can say is to keep throwing tactics at the wall until something sticks.
@Amaterasu People change, especially when money is involved. If it were my uncle my family would completely exclude him out of any affairs. If he's not helping out with your grandmother already, then it shouldn't be much different if he's kicked out. Of course, that's assuming you can convince your family to do so, with what some random asshole on the internet said. Still, like I said with Dell, tougher option but likely the right one in my eyes.
/rant.
Funny thing is, there seems to be the vicious cycle I go through every year concerning any "new" thing I start doing. First half of this semester (or maybe more like 2/3s) I was on top of EVERYTHING. Now the second stage of my final project is late and I'm still working on it (though my professor is fairly lax with due dates). I know it's all my fault, and I get caught in a mental infinite loop and my brain refuses to work no matter how hard I make effort to fix the problem. I just stare at my screen feeling bad for myself.
And if you guys wanna hear my 2 cents on what you've posted here:
@Jade The second you get a chance to get out of the house and STAY out, take it. It's what my mom did. I use to call my grandmother on her side "Granny Barb", now I'll refer to her as "Granny Bitch" in front of my mother and she sometimes even encourages it. I haven't seen GB in likely a decade too, ever since my mom got her shit together(well, she always had, but she finally decided to drop a lot of toxicity in her life). And when you get out, force them out of your life. Don't engage them at all. Just ditch them. Again, what my mom did. I know family is important, but real family goes beyond simple blood relation.
@Dell Much of the same thing I said to Jade, but to expand on that (and this goes for Jade's situation as well). If he never gets physical, then words are only words. I know it sounds stupid but standing up to him is the best thing you can do. Either telling him to fuck off or just ignoring him, it also seems like your mom is on your side. If he gets physical, then he's lost. You can get the police involved. It's the tougher option but I feel it's the right one. I was really, REALLY young when my mom finally got my biological father out of my life. I never loved him, and I always remember being scared of going over to his house for the weekend. He never got physical with my two younger brothers, but he did with me sometimes. Obviously I couldn't fight back back then, but I'm sure you can, and even if it's not that much it's something.
@Vision I'm not a teacher, so I can't say much, but my mom is and something I admire about her is she has dealt with the most difficult SPED students you get and consistently came home with bruises from students getting violent with her. Yet she never once considered just giving up on them. Though, she did eventually get a new job at an elementary school, while she was in SPED she always put her best foot forward when it came to dealing with difficult kids. I know she wanted to strangle them at times, but she understood that there were just kids and mentally challenged ones at that. If you can't simply move back to your home country and get a different teaching job, all I can say is to keep throwing tactics at the wall until something sticks.
@Amaterasu People change, especially when money is involved. If it were my uncle my family would completely exclude him out of any affairs. If he's not helping out with your grandmother already, then it shouldn't be much different if he's kicked out. Of course, that's assuming you can convince your family to do so, with what some random asshole on the internet said. Still, like I said with Dell, tougher option but likely the right one in my eyes.
/rant.
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