Heh... I'm sorry.. Kinda...

[Retane]

I Didn't make this thread to attack or bash Dio. I did this thread because I wanted people to understand a few things.

I've got a lot going on in my mind... Saturday after Magic.... I felt a burning desire(No STD jokes Saske) to rage out and hit something. it's the same mindset I Really use for My Retane. Arith is my serious/jokester persona.

I was alone tonight... just a few hours ago... and Laughed as I shook my head trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with me....

But I decided it was time to admit a fear/weakness to those on my facebook....9I figured I'd be really angry by now ... but im pretty calm...

Here....

April 20th, 2011, AMfour cop cars are outside of te store.
Door opens, "Are you ok?"
I look at him and say, "Yeah".

Heh. Was I ever ok? I've been there. I've seen things. I'm the epitome of ... well one of a kind. But was I ever ok?

After this weekend I still am not sure.

For 4 year's this day haunts me. Hell my mind hautns me.

Call me paranoid, call it concedence, but me and this day don't get along.

2012 ... April 19th... I walk outside, me and bev are getting off shift. four cops have at least two people pulled over... The air... is weird... I look down at my leg and then stare at my right hand and ar m for over a minute. Get in the car and it dawns on me what the anniversary was...

2013... SOMETHING HAPPENED .. im COMPLETELY BLOCKING IT OUT...

2014.... Wreck... Moped tore in half... able to limp away... Oh look... You missed a court date you never knew about... Spend some time in jail... Meanwhile remember that day...

Lol. On April 19th...2011, a bitch mother fucker named Rickie Cobb Jr. made me look like a ... well bitch. Him and his cohort entered the store I was working at not even 45 minutes after shft started with masks on. I was actually laughing like usual. They stole my laugh after they jumped the counter. Melissa was at the computer slow a usual finishing paer work. Jenkins acted like he had a gun in pocket. Never did. Cobb held the .22 revolver at me and demanded money. I threw my hands up and he asked if I thought he was joking.

I was looking at the gun wondering if it would hurt to bad... And thinking it had to be his fathers gun.

I popped regiser and dropped a single slot I could. They ran out. stupid kids treied to run them over... Well Kid with 2 friends i the car. They got shot at. Idiot tried to be the hero... They didnt get hurt, Shook up. the grl in back seat was a daughter of a higher ranking cop.

I told Melissa to call our boss. I called 911. I was anxious, but grabbed a Monster, cuz I knew my adrenaline was rushing. I had locked the doors.(The Emergency signal button had actually broke and fell off when I tried to push it)
Cops showed up, took us out.... sat us down. asked question had us file out paperwork and write statements.

I remember... My boss showed up... and pampered Meliss. Hell i got ignored for 30+ minutes i think. Numb as hell inside... trying to figure it all out. 3-4 hours later CSI is done and Mellisa is alowed to go on her way home. My shift isn't dont. The district manager sticks around because policy says you cant be alone for 2 shifts after being h robbed. I throw head phones and just stock.

Close friend calls my Dad to make sure Im ok....

The night haunts me... I can almost see it when I thnik about it. and there are triggers.


Mentioning Robbery... looking at a friend who slept with the father? Mentiong Rickie's Cousin who has stoled shit from my Dad.... THeres others... I avoid them at all costs or try to ignore them.

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People call me Paranoid, anxious all that good stuff. Weird even.

You haven entered my mind to get half of it. Dads birthday was the 12th, it snapped in my head later on what was coming. Knew the storm was coming again.

And it Hit. Lol I was going to Magic Friday and turned around. Came home.

Reached out and spoke to my son's mother. Another court date missed... Warrant out for my arrest. No phone call. No mail. nothnig. And It makes No sense at all...

Saturday comes around... Heh... Lol Oh look Next saturday is a big tournament and Money is involved... And you have a shot....

I leave the place... and all the way home I'm focused and angry and raging and.... pissed and hating this weekend. Cant think.

Get home... Lol Me and My foreman had talked about poker and I explained how me and my family use to play. Lol well seems they wound up playing it this Saturday.

Today was just as weird... Was suppose to stay home... Had to test a deck Cuz i am finding a way to that Tournament... 1 Mistake... 1 simple loss... gave me 4th... but alot of knowledge.

THen a Storm hit.... A Storm HIT... took power out for over 4 hours.... And it's weird cuz people across the street had power


But it's over this year... I walk away with pain and anger... LMAO and a warrant.

Whats next?

And no, Sasuke. I can actually ask you not to spam, and I am pretty sure the staff wont have a problem with it, and I also don't think you, or anyone will have an issue with actually not spamming this thread any further.

You can tell me your thoughts and issues with me and we can try to work through them, but I mean yeah...