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Heh... I'm sorry.. Kinda... - Retane - 04-18-2015
Eh. Before I go any further, allow me to explain something. I'm 28. I've been writing for quite a bit of years. I was 16 when I started? I'm still that same guy, just more... me.
I've been through a lot, seen shit, had shit happen, so on. What you all see is that angry side, or that gives no fucks side. Though, I do care, I act like I don't, but I do. It's a persona. It's a trollish persona, but meh. I want to explain a few things though.
I write good and I write horrible. My greatest characeristic is Ideas; Writing is second especially if I hit that flow. It's hard for me sometimes, but harder earlier then later. I actually rush things, which is a HUGE flaw of mine.
RIght now I'm wanting to finish our story, and get to our base and do another story.
Kenny, the handler of Jack Frost,is 15.
I've known the kid for... half hiis life? He's got that inner intelligence; That bullied thing inside him that he has over come. I've watched him grow. He has a mother who''s going through cancer, wants his own life. And so on.
Simple fact is, I am that guy that will flat out break a jaw over him. I put loyalty over anything. Love isnt as strong sa loyalty to me. Love is a word and a feeling, but you have to be loyal to someone to even think you really love them.
That's my opinion. I am more loyaly to Kenny, then I am, to my own son. My will gives Kenny all my crap pretty much, with the agreed intention that Kenny will try to see my son and when he is older, give him my stuff and explain who I was.
That's the current Will. It's written and signed.
That being said, and trying to leave him out of this, if you mess with the kid, you really piss me the fuck off. Calling him a pothead, and it getting sent to me, really got under my nerves. It's simple, I think the kid has talent, and you won't mess with himwithout me being involved. He's like a son to me and I have a few things to help him with before I let him go out on his own... OOC and IC.
I am a lot smarter and deeper then I portray... I'm very fucking smart. I'm dark, but at the same time, I'm light. Arith, shows this. He has my jokes. My light side. Arith is the.... Best explination to ever describe me. Retane/Enro.... My Angry dark sides with hope and light.
That being said.... If I offend you... I apologize. If I make you angry, annoyed or whatever. Again I apologize. I respond OOC with a Retane/Me type answer usually.
It's just me. I've had to talk people out of suicide, got sent a video of a kid cutting himself.... Shit like that...
A16.. As Goku Jr. And Minoshia actually fought A16... it's what really bolstered Minoshia... I went inactive... Came back as Pikkon then went inactive, but wemt omactive again... and Became Retane...
A16 was a kid... under 18... Heh... I was an ass like usual in front... but he had issues... Dark issues...I can recognize those things... and we talked for a while. I talked him out of it.
But, all that being said... I've been there... and I'm angry again. I'm angry, yet im dedicated.
2011 April 19th started my weird year of great ups and downs. Got robbed at gun point... I have some PTSD/Anxiety going on...Bad LUCK... Tch... '12 saw cops light air felt weird... it was weird and I realized why...
'13 I cant remember what.. I'm blocking it outm for a reason... '14 I was in jail after barely suriviing a fucking wreck that coulda killed me. Oh look I knew sometihng was weird... Seems there a warrant out for me again. Because I missed another court date I didn't know about.
So yeah... Lol....
This is a small explination and an aplogy, and a reason...
But no offense to anyone, Dio will die, and get circled. Kenny has said that after watching how he was last night and sitting down and reading it all, that The Horsemen will banish Dio at the first possible chance IC.
Kenny wanted us to Bounty Hunt, Named Samus, Harry and Magus. I said I wasn't going after Magus, and said I wasn't gonna help Coruscant.
Kenny said we have to kill Dio after calling him a pothead and the way he acted last night. So after The Abyss... Dio is not just going to die... I will Banish him.
Call it agression, but i want you to know who I am and where I come from....
Re: Heh... I'm sorry.. Kinda... - Retane - 04-18-2015
Again, I am sorry if I have upset you. 'Cept for Dio. I won't apologize for anything that has happened or will happened. You called Kenny a pothead, and I saw it. Kid haes drugs, has to deal with them daily.... Heh... You chose your fate. I'm going to ruin you. You can apolgize to him, and if he accepts it, Then sure you MAY live. But you have to apologize to him.... Or else you are fucked.
But yeah, I'm angry.... Not at anyone... It's just a fucked up weekend. And I'm sorry for anything I've ever done.
Re: Heh... I'm sorry.. Kinda... - Deadpool - 04-18-2015
I think I speak for most people here when I say you're not a bad guy. You're irritating as hell sometimes, but not bad.
I remember I used to talk to you occasionally on AIM, and you were a cool guy away from the site. Just seemed like you enjoyed indulging into your characters persona.
Anyway, as far as Dio, it isn't necessary to publicly come at him. There is enough "drama" swirling around right now as is, no need to exasperate issues
Re: Heh... I'm sorry.. Kinda... - Retane - 04-18-2015
Lol...... So yeah... this weekend is bad for me....
Friday Nights I go Play Friday Night Magic.... I actually got scared and turned around. I'm told it's anxiety/PTSD, but I turned around and came home last night and hung out with Kenny. Gt KFC. and well hit the mother of my son up.... It's hard to be nice when you have been lied on and put in jail over lies.... Well theres a warrant out for my arrest...
I missed a court date on April 8th I didnt know about.
Learned that the TRUE MAL NOVA, who is almost 4 yrs old. Has a faster heartbeat, and is on ritilan, and clonidine... for it.
So I am going through alot.
I have to find out how much I owe... find a way to catch that up; Pfind a way to play in a minumum 2k prizepool Super IQ next weekend,. Get a Truck... Win DA, and Get my Promotion.... So things are running through my head... if this is comfusing....IM sorry. But imagine how it is going through my head.
Re: Heh... I'm sorry.. Kinda... - DioBrando - 04-19-2015
Deadpool Wrote:I think I speak for most people here when I say you're not a bad guy. You're irritating as hell sometimes, but not bad.
I remember I used to talk to you occasionally on AIM, and you were a cool guy away from the site. Just seemed like you enjoyed indulging into your characters persona.
Anyway, as far as Dio, it isn't necessary to publicly come at him. There is enough "drama" swirling around right now as is, no need to exasperate issues
To clarify this here I do want to come out and publically apologize for the insult slinging.
This isn't me trying to back down from a fight here, I'm still completely fine with you coming after me.
But I am sorry for calling your friends names. That was hateful and toxic in ways it had no right to be, and I sincerely apologize for it.
I may not be your best friend, but there's a measure of respect that should be given to everyone that wasn't given here and that's my fault.
Re: Heh... I'm sorry.. Kinda... - Sasuke Uchiha - 04-19-2015
So, since this is in the Whateververse and not immune to thread hijacking or spam...
Here are eleven 'potheads' that might just change your perspective on the negative associations you have on the term 'Pothead'. Honestly, it didn't take me very long to find this many great people and I bet you could find even more. Also, it is now a medicine and so, when you give it a negative association all you are doing is shaming patients.
Maya Angelou(Famous Poet)
Sarah Palin(Politician)
Lincoln Chafee(Governor of Road Island)
Matt Damon(Academy Award Winning Actor)
Susan Sarandon(Academy Award Winning Actor)
Andrew Sullivan(Famous British Author and Editor)
Martha Stewart(Better Homemaker Than Your Mom)
Morgan Freeman(God. Or at least the voice of God.)
David Letterman(American Television Host, Comedian, Writer, Producer, and Actor)
Michael Phelps(Multiple Record Breaking Olympic Gold Medalist)
Tom Brokaw(American Television Journalist and Editor of NBC Nightly News) -Although admittedly he no longer tokes.
Crazy right? Google bro, I love that sh*t.
Dio was man enough to post here, like a man, so, that was cool. Now, both of you need get out of the way of Chidori train, cause it's COMING!
Re: Heh... I'm sorry.. Kinda... - Retane - 04-20-2015
I Didn't make this thread to attack or bash Dio. I did this thread because I wanted people to understand a few things.
I've got a lot going on in my mind... Saturday after Magic.... I felt a burning desire(No STD jokes Saske) to rage out and hit something. it's the same mindset I Really use for My Retane. Arith is my serious/jokester persona.
I was alone tonight... just a few hours ago... and Laughed as I shook my head trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with me....
But I decided it was time to admit a fear/weakness to those on my facebook....9I figured I'd be really angry by now ... but im pretty calm...
Here....
Quote:April 20th, 2011, AMfour cop cars are outside of te store.
Door opens, "Are you ok?"
I look at him and say, "Yeah".
Heh. Was I ever ok? I've been there. I've seen things. I'm the epitome of ... well one of a kind. But was I ever ok?
After this weekend I still am not sure.
For 4 year's this day haunts me. Hell my mind hautns me.
Call me paranoid, call it concedence, but me and this day don't get along.
2012 ... April 19th... I walk outside, me and bev are getting off shift. four cops have at least two people pulled over... The air... is weird... I look down at my leg and then stare at my right hand and ar m for over a minute. Get in the car and it dawns on me what the anniversary was...
2013... SOMETHING HAPPENED .. im COMPLETELY BLOCKING IT OUT...
2014.... Wreck... Moped tore in half... able to limp away... Oh look... You missed a court date you never knew about... Spend some time in jail... Meanwhile remember that day...
Lol. On April 19th...2011, a bitch mother fucker named Rickie Cobb Jr. made me look like a ... well bitch. Him and his cohort entered the store I was working at not even 45 minutes after shft started with masks on. I was actually laughing like usual. They stole my laugh after they jumped the counter. Melissa was at the computer slow a usual finishing paer work. Jenkins acted like he had a gun in pocket. Never did. Cobb held the .22 revolver at me and demanded money. I threw my hands up and he asked if I thought he was joking.
I was looking at the gun wondering if it would hurt to bad... And thinking it had to be his fathers gun.
I popped regiser and dropped a single slot I could. They ran out. stupid kids treied to run them over... Well Kid with 2 friends i the car. They got shot at. Idiot tried to be the hero... They didnt get hurt, Shook up. the grl in back seat was a daughter of a higher ranking cop.
I told Melissa to call our boss. I called 911. I was anxious, but grabbed a Monster, cuz I knew my adrenaline was rushing. I had locked the doors.(The Emergency signal button had actually broke and fell off when I tried to push it)
Cops showed up, took us out.... sat us down. asked question had us file out paperwork and write statements.
I remember... My boss showed up... and pampered Meliss. Hell i got ignored for 30+ minutes i think. Numb as hell inside... trying to figure it all out. 3-4 hours later CSI is done and Mellisa is alowed to go on her way home. My shift isn't dont. The district manager sticks around because policy says you cant be alone for 2 shifts after being h robbed. I throw head phones and just stock.
Close friend calls my Dad to make sure Im ok....
The night haunts me... I can almost see it when I thnik about it. and there are triggers.
Mentioning Robbery... looking at a friend who slept with the father? Mentiong Rickie's Cousin who has stoled shit from my Dad.... THeres others... I avoid them at all costs or try to ignore them.
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People call me Paranoid, anxious all that good stuff. Weird even.
You haven entered my mind to get half of it. Dads birthday was the 12th, it snapped in my head later on what was coming. Knew the storm was coming again.
And it Hit. Lol I was going to Magic Friday and turned around. Came home.
Reached out and spoke to my son's mother. Another court date missed... Warrant out for my arrest. No phone call. No mail. nothnig. And It makes No sense at all...
Saturday comes around... Heh... Lol Oh look Next saturday is a big tournament and Money is involved... And you have a shot....
I leave the place... and all the way home I'm focused and angry and raging and.... pissed and hating this weekend. Cant think.
Get home... Lol Me and My foreman had talked about poker and I explained how me and my family use to play. Lol well seems they wound up playing it this Saturday.
Today was just as weird... Was suppose to stay home... Had to test a deck Cuz i am finding a way to that Tournament... 1 Mistake... 1 simple loss... gave me 4th... but alot of knowledge.
THen a Storm hit.... A Storm HIT... took power out for over 4 hours.... And it's weird cuz people across the street had power
But it's over this year... I walk away with pain and anger... LMAO and a warrant.
Whats next?
And no, Sasuke. I can actually ask you not to spam, and I am pretty sure the staff wont have a problem with it, and I also don't think you, or anyone will have an issue with actually not spamming this thread any further.
You can tell me your thoughts and issues with me and we can try to work through them, but I mean yeah...
Re: Heh... I'm sorry.. Kinda... - Carn_Val - 04-20-2015
I love these pieces of information. Thanks for indulging me in it. In no way am I ever going to say "I understand now" but at least I have a better picture. I like how you're making Omniverse an outlet of frustration from reality, everyone has their own way of doing it.
I should say "Take it easy" now but then there's that paranoia you have. Cheers.