Omniverse Venting Thread

[Miranda Frost]

You guys ever feel like you're a marionette, acting out the mannerisms and voices you used to do, but now you're just kind of miming yourself? I don't even feel real like, anguish these days but I do just feel tired. All the time. It's good to not feel anguish and this is probably better. I think it's probably maybe some kind of fallout after I broke up with my ex, because feeling nothing is better than pain, and so maybe numbness is like my brain's survival mechanism. But I do always feel like everything is too much effort and it's just not worth it, and if not for my mother I would definitely kill myself. Sometimes I DO get really low and I DO really want to kill myself, but then I think about my mum's face and I cannot do it. Sometimes I feel like, fuck it, it's my life, but I'm not that callous yet.

I dunno, I go through phases. Some nights I'm loving life. It's a definite improvement. I've really kicked my ass into gear in the last six months, but I know it's come at the expense of stuff here and I don't know that there's a right answer to that. I don't regret placing life's priorities first, but I also feel kind of sorry that I'm not as active as I used to be.

@homin I feel like any shit I have to say would feel facetious, haha, but I am reading at least. And this sounds facetious but I'm gonna say it anyway, things will get better.

 No need to be sorry bro. we all go through our phases man, its all a part of being human. We all love you man, glad to see that you're safe.