06-20-2017, 12:28 PM
I'm here mostly to try and vent before the downward spiral begins anew.
SO!
Hi, I'm the writer of Nezha (still in the Nexus) and Lil' Ghostie (cute bug in DA, fightan fo' his life). I have a problem with "Mild" Cyclic Depression (might not be the proper term), Stress, and Anxiety Attacks. The first is often preceeded by the last, both being caused by the middle coupled with genetics. Fun, isn't it?
Today I had an anxiety attack, the first in months. While biking home from work I noticed that I was getting legitimately angry at random people for doing those small random people things that normally barely even rate irritation. 30 seconds later and I'm barely keeping it together enough to keep biking, breath in barely contained pants, tears from my eyes, feeling like I could just die at any moment and it'd be better, the works. I somehow make it home, which was like 5-10 minutes but felt like a fucking eternity. So yeah, I am probably heading downwards from this positive ride I had for the last month or so. 80-85% probability I'll be feeling like a worthless, unlovable waste of space within a week from now.
My question is: If you know your mood is about to take a turn for the worse in the near future, what do you do to manage/lessen the impact?
SO!
Hi, I'm the writer of Nezha (still in the Nexus) and Lil' Ghostie (cute bug in DA, fightan fo' his life). I have a problem with "Mild" Cyclic Depression (might not be the proper term), Stress, and Anxiety Attacks. The first is often preceeded by the last, both being caused by the middle coupled with genetics. Fun, isn't it?
Today I had an anxiety attack, the first in months. While biking home from work I noticed that I was getting legitimately angry at random people for doing those small random people things that normally barely even rate irritation. 30 seconds later and I'm barely keeping it together enough to keep biking, breath in barely contained pants, tears from my eyes, feeling like I could just die at any moment and it'd be better, the works. I somehow make it home, which was like 5-10 minutes but felt like a fucking eternity. So yeah, I am probably heading downwards from this positive ride I had for the last month or so. 80-85% probability I'll be feeling like a worthless, unlovable waste of space within a week from now.
My question is: If you know your mood is about to take a turn for the worse in the near future, what do you do to manage/lessen the impact?
"So you'd pursue the deeper truth? It isn't one the weak could bear."
"Prove yourself ready to face it. I'll not hold back. My needle is lethal and I'd feel no sadness in a weakling's demise."
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