06-05-2017, 04:54 PM
The ups are a lot upper than they were a few months ago. I'm getting a lot of satisfaction out of doing Omniverse stuff.
The downs are pretty much the same. And it's still always there, though this is something I've learned ... even when generally I'm happy, it's always there. And now that I've moved into this new house, and things are "stable" again, I wonder if it's a bigger risk since I have access to the fourth storey with a nice window that I could easily, and happily, throw myself out of.
My debate right now is whether or not to start taking this sertraline, now that I'm settled and fully off the citalopram. Honestly, I don't like taking antidepressants. They don't do much for my core sadness, they just numb me artificially. And, I don't know whether the sertraline would do the same, but ... I got the hugest boost in inspiration and motivation when I started coming off the citalopram. I don't know if it's been keeping me suppressed or what. I'd guess so. My brother had a similar experience, that citalopram just turns you into a zombie.
Sertraline might dampen the lows but it also might dampen the highs. In the end, therefore, what's the point? I'd rather keep my ability to work.
I know nobody here is a medical expert but some folks might have a better insight than I do. I've only taken the one antidepressant before, citalopram.
Edit: and I guess there's another route. Exercise. It's a good high. I've been walking every day of late. It makes me feel better. Might be a reason my sister, who's suffered from extreme depression, has turned into a fitness/running freak. Course I can't do it without this newfangled motivation, at the behest of which I've been considering gymming up.
The downs are pretty much the same. And it's still always there, though this is something I've learned ... even when generally I'm happy, it's always there. And now that I've moved into this new house, and things are "stable" again, I wonder if it's a bigger risk since I have access to the fourth storey with a nice window that I could easily, and happily, throw myself out of.
My debate right now is whether or not to start taking this sertraline, now that I'm settled and fully off the citalopram. Honestly, I don't like taking antidepressants. They don't do much for my core sadness, they just numb me artificially. And, I don't know whether the sertraline would do the same, but ... I got the hugest boost in inspiration and motivation when I started coming off the citalopram. I don't know if it's been keeping me suppressed or what. I'd guess so. My brother had a similar experience, that citalopram just turns you into a zombie.
Sertraline might dampen the lows but it also might dampen the highs. In the end, therefore, what's the point? I'd rather keep my ability to work.
I know nobody here is a medical expert but some folks might have a better insight than I do. I've only taken the one antidepressant before, citalopram.
Edit: and I guess there's another route. Exercise. It's a good high. I've been walking every day of late. It makes me feel better. Might be a reason my sister, who's suffered from extreme depression, has turned into a fitness/running freak. Course I can't do it without this newfangled motivation, at the behest of which I've been considering gymming up.
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