Depression [Mature]

[Violet]

I'm at the point right now that if someone gave me a loaded gun, I'd do it without a second's hesitation. So fucking angry and just ... don't think I'll ever stop feeling fucked up and enraged and sad.

It'll get better, eventually. Just have to keep going, every day. Remind yourself that the alternative isn't really better, and even if it's something small, just look forward to that. Mine is delving deep into my minecraft community, because I know they need me as much as I need them. The community there reminds me a lot of Chubbs, in good and bad ways, but it seems I'm the only one of the people who can do shit there significant that gives a shit, and without me, it'd die off, much like Chubbs did.

If it helps any, I care about you. I know I don't talk to you much, but I do think of you quite a bit and how you're doing. You're someone special to me, Greg. <3