04-02-2017, 08:38 AM
That conversation was very reminiscent. Anger is better than sadness, though it does burn out eventually, and you have to find something else to keep going.
I guess part of the problem, Kanda, is that I can't get closure to lots of the things eating me. Some of my dreams are simply being able to speak to her ex. I think guilt ate her up so she wouldn't even talk to me. And I tried so hard to just get some closure out of her, but not a word in 2 months until her mother called me to say that she'd hospitalised herself, and not to try calling or messaging anymore. It's fucked. I feel like now I can never trust anyone again. There's always that doubt, that no matter how much someone says they love you, no matter how long you spend together, they could turn around the same day and stop talking to you, and there's nothing you'd be able to do about it.
I should probably talk to my doctor about trying something else. It did work for a while at the higher doses, but I guess my body got used to it.
I guess part of the problem, Kanda, is that I can't get closure to lots of the things eating me. Some of my dreams are simply being able to speak to her ex. I think guilt ate her up so she wouldn't even talk to me. And I tried so hard to just get some closure out of her, but not a word in 2 months until her mother called me to say that she'd hospitalised herself, and not to try calling or messaging anymore. It's fucked. I feel like now I can never trust anyone again. There's always that doubt, that no matter how much someone says they love you, no matter how long you spend together, they could turn around the same day and stop talking to you, and there's nothing you'd be able to do about it.
I should probably talk to my doctor about trying something else. It did work for a while at the higher doses, but I guess my body got used to it.
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