12-12-2015, 11:21 PM
Email from Christa, To Mrs. Martha Tennant
Dear Martha,
Looks like I ran into hell. Or rather, it ran into me. I feel something I'd call obligation, remorse, compensation or otherwise compelling me to jump back in it. I want to be happy, and I truly am. But now, I have to give back. I've met solders, brave men, who had no idea what they were fighting for. Now I have a chance, and a choice, to make it right. I've killed people, and not given a damn. People, not all innocent, but people who had a reason to become the monsters they were when they died.
Now, I'm a Prime. I've changed in one way, and I see now that there's no going back. I am who I am now, and well, quite honestly, I can't relate to the woman I was just six months ago. I'm typing this from my phone - thank god for technology, am I right? But secretly, I'm scared for them, scared for her. Who am I to turn down a battle? Who am I to choose not to stop an entire goddamn war? It doesn't even sound like me. And what the freak do I have to deny? It is certainly not impossible for me to want to choose the selfish option. I am arrogant enough, after all.
But meeting Omni, showed me how futile it all is. I value each moment I have with my sister. And I can learn to value the time that is apart. It's time I pay for my sins. It was my fault she died a year ago, and I can make, or try, to make the world right again. Think I'm stepping even one foot in Coruscant? Trouble is finding its way into every verse. The man I met today in the Nexus was from the Pale Moors. The life had literally been sucked out of him. He was in his twenties when I last saw him, and serving under a man whose name I can't even speak here without compromising your safety.
Coruscant once killed my sister in order to use my skill for something they wanted. After all this time, I was starting to put it all together. And this, may well be my best lead. Not to mention, I'm sure that looking back, looking forward, I'd choose this option every time. If not for me, for my redemption, but for her. I'm not sure I can ever really have peace. But I'm willing to try.
I'll see you soon, and I hope that you'll be able to do this favor for me. . . It'll be a big one.
Signed,
Christa Adams
Dear Martha,
Looks like I ran into hell. Or rather, it ran into me. I feel something I'd call obligation, remorse, compensation or otherwise compelling me to jump back in it. I want to be happy, and I truly am. But now, I have to give back. I've met solders, brave men, who had no idea what they were fighting for. Now I have a chance, and a choice, to make it right. I've killed people, and not given a damn. People, not all innocent, but people who had a reason to become the monsters they were when they died.
Now, I'm a Prime. I've changed in one way, and I see now that there's no going back. I am who I am now, and well, quite honestly, I can't relate to the woman I was just six months ago. I'm typing this from my phone - thank god for technology, am I right? But secretly, I'm scared for them, scared for her. Who am I to turn down a battle? Who am I to choose not to stop an entire goddamn war? It doesn't even sound like me. And what the freak do I have to deny? It is certainly not impossible for me to want to choose the selfish option. I am arrogant enough, after all.
But meeting Omni, showed me how futile it all is. I value each moment I have with my sister. And I can learn to value the time that is apart. It's time I pay for my sins. It was my fault she died a year ago, and I can make, or try, to make the world right again. Think I'm stepping even one foot in Coruscant? Trouble is finding its way into every verse. The man I met today in the Nexus was from the Pale Moors. The life had literally been sucked out of him. He was in his twenties when I last saw him, and serving under a man whose name I can't even speak here without compromising your safety.
Coruscant once killed my sister in order to use my skill for something they wanted. After all this time, I was starting to put it all together. And this, may well be my best lead. Not to mention, I'm sure that looking back, looking forward, I'd choose this option every time. If not for me, for my redemption, but for her. I'm not sure I can ever really have peace. But I'm willing to try.
I'll see you soon, and I hope that you'll be able to do this favor for me. . . It'll be a big one.
Signed,
Christa Adams
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