10-27-2013, 01:25 PM
Some medications have been proven to help with what your describing while others bring on problems you never had to begin with after prolonged exposure. It all depends on your chemical levels and biology honestly.
Personally I can say they helped me. For a period of time I abused benzodiapines (un-prescribed) not knowing that because they actually were helping me, my using and eventually mixing them with other substances was slowly but surely making me worse. After a few incidents I was admitted into a psychiatric facility having induced a psychosis by my unhealthy habits. While some of you thought of taking your own life I dreamed of others being taken. People close to me, people I just met or didn't even recognize in the most brutal ways. Eventually I even thought to act those dreams and thoughts out. It was a real dark, not nice place to find myself in. Eventually it left me alone in a air conditioned room in the winter time with a paranoid schizophrenic who saw demons for a roommate.
After doing what I needed to get to out-patient treatment I had a period of just blah. I could sit in a room for hours staring at a wall completely conscious of it but unwilling, unmotivated by any thought that crossed my mind. Then I decided to try something new. I started Kung Fu for some time, combining with p90 x for a few months. Weened myself off the anti-psychotics when I felt the time was right and started towards a better life ever since.
Once I felt "normal" Kung Fu was left on the side and work took priority, then eventually some social interaction ultimately leading to the birth of my son. I've felt untouchable ever since.
Now while I'm not saying go out do Kung Fu and have a kid, what I am trying to convey is that even though this period seems rough it will pass. The best thing you could have done is post here because you are acknowledging you are not alone. Just be sure to remember that.
Personally I can say they helped me. For a period of time I abused benzodiapines (un-prescribed) not knowing that because they actually were helping me, my using and eventually mixing them with other substances was slowly but surely making me worse. After a few incidents I was admitted into a psychiatric facility having induced a psychosis by my unhealthy habits. While some of you thought of taking your own life I dreamed of others being taken. People close to me, people I just met or didn't even recognize in the most brutal ways. Eventually I even thought to act those dreams and thoughts out. It was a real dark, not nice place to find myself in. Eventually it left me alone in a air conditioned room in the winter time with a paranoid schizophrenic who saw demons for a roommate.
After doing what I needed to get to out-patient treatment I had a period of just blah. I could sit in a room for hours staring at a wall completely conscious of it but unwilling, unmotivated by any thought that crossed my mind. Then I decided to try something new. I started Kung Fu for some time, combining with p90 x for a few months. Weened myself off the anti-psychotics when I felt the time was right and started towards a better life ever since.
Once I felt "normal" Kung Fu was left on the side and work took priority, then eventually some social interaction ultimately leading to the birth of my son. I've felt untouchable ever since.
Now while I'm not saying go out do Kung Fu and have a kid, what I am trying to convey is that even though this period seems rough it will pass. The best thing you could have done is post here because you are acknowledging you are not alone. Just be sure to remember that.