10-26-2013, 05:52 PM
I can't tell if I'm ego-masturbating or depressed. I've been friends with most of you and don't feel like posting this on facebook for like obvious reasons.
So nothing really seems to excite me or make me happy, other than video games. I play way too many. Like, upwards of four hours a day on workdays and 12 hours a day on non-workdays. I probably spend more time playing games than sleeping. But I can't tell if it's actually fun or if it's just not-explicitly-boring. It passes the time. Otherwise, I'm kinda peeved and not happy.
Like seriously. Nothing else is exciting. Every girl I've dated has ended up not exciting after a month at most; my job isn't exciting; I learned to play piano when I was younger and haven't found it exciting for years; photography doesn't sound exciting. Writing doesn't sound exciting.
I dunno. We're supposed to be diverse people with many interests, but I only have one. It's not that I'm thoroughly unhappy, I'm just not really ever happy. What is this? Do any of you experience this sort of thing?
So nothing really seems to excite me or make me happy, other than video games. I play way too many. Like, upwards of four hours a day on workdays and 12 hours a day on non-workdays. I probably spend more time playing games than sleeping. But I can't tell if it's actually fun or if it's just not-explicitly-boring. It passes the time. Otherwise, I'm kinda peeved and not happy.
Like seriously. Nothing else is exciting. Every girl I've dated has ended up not exciting after a month at most; my job isn't exciting; I learned to play piano when I was younger and haven't found it exciting for years; photography doesn't sound exciting. Writing doesn't sound exciting.
I dunno. We're supposed to be diverse people with many interests, but I only have one. It's not that I'm thoroughly unhappy, I'm just not really ever happy. What is this? Do any of you experience this sort of thing?