Need to Vent

[Dawnika Snow]

Okay so some people know I'm having a hard time right now. Just less than a week ago I broke up with the person whom I loved dearly because of neglectful behavior towards me.. And something else has come up with me that has kind of brought me down.

I am about 115% sure I have both Avoidant and Dependent Personality Disorders. I haven't been officially diagnosed for it yet, as I just learned of it. If you don't know what they are, here:

• Avoidant Personality Disorder. Avoidant personalities are often hypersensitive to rejection and are unwilling to become involved with others unless they are sure of being liked. Excessive social discomfort, timidity, fear of criticism, avoidance of social or work activities that involve interpersonal contact are characteristic of the avoidant personality. They are fearful of saying something considered foolish by others; worry they will blush or cry in front of others; and are very hurt by any disapproval by others. People with avoidant personality disorder may have no close relationships outside of their family circle, although they would like to, and are upset at their inability to relate well to others.
  • Dependent Personality Disorder. People with dependent personality disorder may exhibit a pattern of dependent and submissive behavior, relying on others to make decisions for them. They require excessive reassurance and advice, and are easily hurt by criticism or disapproval. They feel uncomfortable and helpless if they are alone, and can be devastated when a close relationship ends. They have a strong fear of rejection. Typically lacking in self-confidence, the dependent personality rarely initiates projects or does things independently. This disorder usually begins by early adulthood and is diagnosed more frequently in females than males.
    
    Im having a terrible time accepting both of these and just needed to vent about it a little.